Monday, September 20, 2010

Reading the Weather

The sky will not be clear and blue everyday, so if it’s dismal, cloudy and pouring rain, bathe in it. Hopefully you won’t be struck by a lightning bolt but it’s still enjoyable, well for me anyway, I love to walk in the rain.

In any case, with my mindset to have a wonderful day despite the pain, today was cool. I was determined to kick any hiccups to the curb and you know what? There were none, which was absolutely spectacular. Tomorrow is another day however, each day has its own moods but I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Tonight, I’m watching a movie and taking it easy.

Sunday, September 19, 2010


Ever wonder why feelings are so confusing? You find that you are doing or saying the strangest things with no idea why and then you ask yourself, ‘what am I doing?’ When you think about it though, you just can’t help it.

It’s like wanting something, but it’s not something you are accustomed to or would even think about wanting. Yet, you are drawn to it and no matter how much you try to ignore the feeling, it’s pulling you in. Normally it would not matter, similar things you’ll think ‘woo this is cool’ and that’s it, you won’t be bothered after that.

You know realistically this particular thing is out of reach but it’s on your mind like an obsession. You just want it to the point where it becomes a need and you begin to miss that it’s not there. You can safely say it has gotten into your bloodstream and there is nothing you can do about it.

Maybe it’s meant to happen, to bring some good into your life to change the way you do things, other than that, it would just be torture adoring something you know you cannot have.

Friday, September 10, 2010


It’s Eid-ul-Fitr and a public holiday. Fortunately our citizens, of Trinidad and Tobago which is a multi-religious and multi-racial society, are able to accept our diversity considering that we are two small islands.

In my mind there are four issues that can lead to extreme violence and death which are race, religion, politics and property ownership. Growing up I’ve always been glad that I cannot be classed in one race over the other since I am of mixed descent, giving me the option to just blend in.

It’s really terrible that one person’s view can clash with another resulting in something horrific, this is life though and it will happen. There will always be people who think it is their right to impose their beliefs, demanding that others believe as they do, or else.

In terms of religion, I prefer the Christian way for which I have my reasons. I believe however that no one has the right to force anyone to believe as they do in anything. Why? You may ask. God has given us freedom of choice. Of course we will all have to account for what we do in this life as some point in time, so I’ll always say choose wisely but the freedom is there.

We may forget at times that in religion there are different branches of the same, that is, there are different sections of Christianity, Islam, Hinduism and so on. Each section has different views, practices and behaviours, some more fanatical than others. Unfortunately, when one section decides to do something dramatic, everyone associated with that religion is blamed.

I will always say that in anything, do not start a war that you cannot finish as the end result may not be what is expected, and may in turn bring you sorrow for a long time to come. Believe it or not, war at times is necessary when you need to defend your territory but when it can be avoided, do. Sometimes it is better to walk away so you can live to fight another day.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

What is the Value?

I’ve been surrounded by a tug of war for a while now. A relationship spat which should have ended on better terms but just can’t since it was built upon materialism. I decided a long time ago that I won’t take sides which I made known, simply because I understand it from both points of view and I respect them both.

Even though I always talk about this, I really pondered on it today. Sometimes we envy people for their success, lifestyle and more or less what they own because we wish we could have it. The thing is, from a public view they seem happy and on top of the world, but behind closed doors we don’t know what they are going through.

When we think the grass is greener on the other side, it isn’t. Wealth can buy an image, it can buy things, it can buy friends, but it cannot buy happiness or a meaningful life for that comes from within. It is heartbreaking to listen to the stories of mental anguish that they inflict upon each other, and I am honestly worried about the outcome that could bring.

Work hard to accomplish whatever you desire in life but remember that money is only for comfort not for love. Even if you can’t make it to a certain level financially be content with your blessings. A lot of the world’s problems can be solved if we learn to care about people instead of accruing things.